To Post or Not To Post

All right, I’ve been internally debating to what extent I would talk about myself and whether or not to post any soul searching deep personal and private thoughts in this blog (like everyone else seems to be doing) rather than just stick to pointing to and commenting on things that are influencing my thought process (or just things I think are cool), as I have mostly done so far.

I have never understood the urge to reveal one’s inner thoughts where they might be stumbled upon by some who should never know them… It used to be girls kept their diary locked away in a secret place where they hoped no one would find it, now they post it on MySpace!

But as I prepare to get back in the “Internet Dating” thing for the third (and a half) time in my life, I have all kinds of thoughts about women, love, relationships and sex running around in my head (some of them new and confusing) and it feels like an attempt to put them on paper (so to speak) might help to make sense of them… or at least help frame them more clearly. And in some weird way that I don’t fully understand, I know that if it wasn’t for the fact that I’m posting this, I wouldn’t bother with the exercise and would instead just keep running them in circles in my head.

So this is it, I’ve become one of those crazy people who bears his soul on the internet. Not only that, but I’m about to do it about the most intimate thing I can think of; my sexuality and my affective relationship to women. I must’ve really lost it!

But before I get to what’s really on my mind, you should know this about me first.